A Victim, Victimized!

Can I un-see
What I already saw?

Can I un-feel
What I already felt?

Can I un-fear
The fear that's already within me now?

Can I feel unashamed
Because it wasn't my fault.

Can I feel loved again
Like I've deserved to be felt always?

Can I feel un-talked about
It's really my private hell

Can I un-cringe anymore
At the very act of all men?

Can I ever feel un-deafeated
Like I felt before?

Can I un-weep
At my brutal past?

Can I un-taint my skin
Free of scars and strife?

Can I un-cage my soul
To let it soar like it used to?

Can I un-shatter
These broken pieces of my life?

Can I un-hear
These judgmental voice around me?

CanI feel un-vulnerable
And trust again?

Can I feel un-destroyed
Go back to being the strong-me?

Can I feel un-guilty
It wasn't my lapse in judgment

Can I feel un-robbed
Of a real relationship?

 But before I answer all these questions ....

Can you un-notice me
I'm not your private property

Can you un-touch me
The gruesome way you did?

Can you undo everything,
Everything?

Can you be a 'real man'?
Because I wasn't 'asking for it'!

Can you stand up for my cause? 
Because it is not my battle alone now! 

I want to know 'YOU'

I want to know the real 'you'.

I want to know the direction in which you twirl, 

the pretty tendrils of you hair when in deep thought

I want to know why you shy away or purse your lips so, 

When put on the spot

I want to know how your eyes light up

when you playfully banter with me

I want to know how those dimples dance in your cheeks
when you smile gladly, sweet pea! 

I want to know how you wiggle your nose,

when something you hate

I want to know what completes the smile
That your deep blue eyes started to relate

I want to know the click of you heel

When you enter the door

I want to know how you glide by me
With your intoxicating perfume galore

I want to know how you dance
To the beat of your own song so merrily

I want to know how your goosebumps feel
When I touch you tenderly

I want to know what irks you 

and what your heart really desires

Your hopes, dreams and ambitions
Thoughts, reflections and memories!


I want to know the real 'you'.

The Thief

She emerged from nothingness

Not a soul knew of her

But she had lofty dreams

And the need to get noticed 

She hobnobbed with the famous

But how long could she shine on borrowed feathers?

She needed her own radiance; her own glamor quotient

So, she clandestinely began to steal what was another's

Nonchalantly, at first

But once people noticed her, she didn't care where the shine came from

In the day she hid for the fear of being found out

She shone the brightest in the nebulous dark

The eyes of the universe upon her

When the cosmic media pointed fingers at her

She would shy away and hide till no one saw her

And then re-emerge when the buzz had died down

She had the big blue orb's blessings

          But to this day, the sun still feels cheated    

                                                   They say he spews fire in anger at her mention                                                

   

  "Thief!", he shrieks, "you stole my sparkle!"

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Chimera

And then I slipped into a deep reverie

dreams of love and ecstasy

I fell deeper and deeper in love

Till it was time to get woken up

I felt around in the dead air

If you were still possibly there

You had been for sure, a keeper

I wish I had slept on ...a little longer.

Real Reflections

Broken shards of mirrors

Reflect back many a faces

Some known, some unknown

The true self looks back

Unfazed ..... unmoved! 

Autumn Leaves

It's time she said ...

Many a seasons we've spent;

But I have to leave now ...

I'll be a lingering memory till the end.

He tried clinging on

For the sake of another day;

Reliving all those beautiful moments

Holding on till he could, yesterday and today.

Then with a slight jolt,

She freed herself from him...

Till we meet again, she said

Probably, when the flowers bloom next spring.

The sky was turning grey

And the clouds were casting shadows.

A gentle, cool breeze swept her yonder

Away from her love who was left to ponder.

The sun gently gleamed

Over the horizon far, far away;

The skies soon were streaks of pink

As she rode on the tame zephyr.

Till finally the gust dropped her by my window

I lay my eyes on her and picked her up tenderly

Scarlet red with streaks of green was she

Bringing in October, the first signs of autumn glee.

Love or Heartache?

Pit in the stomach, short of breath;

The malaise and a brow of fret.

A beating heart, hands that shake;

Random shivers and a dull headache.

A tremble of hope, unsteady knees;

Quivering lips and brains in deep-freeze! 

Sinking emotions, unstopping tears;

Choked windpipes, and myriad fears.

Disoriented, disillusioned, hopeless and unawake,

'Falling in love' or was that just 'heartache'? 

Similar feelings, dissimilar situations;

Warrant comparable and kindred actions.

I wonder if it's the same coin with two aspects

Or just a perspective for one to dissect!